Confused…

Is she the one for me? Or is she not?

Got to know some truth from somebody today. Kind of shocked, sad, undescribe-able feelings, round it up, it’s mixed feelings.

Started to feel that things around me are pre-planned; carefully planned by a paranoid person; acted by somebody who I had trusted all along. I felt that I had been given false hopes.

As for the truth, is it pre-planned plot as well? I dunno, I dun dare to think of it. Maybe I am trying hard to accept, or it is just meant to deter me?

Guess I really lost hopes in love stuffs. I dunno who I can trust and love. Guess I will continue keeping stuffs to myself. For there is no longer anybody I can pour out to. I simply don’t like people giving me the sympathetic look after I tell them the stuffs, I want their views on the matter for I’ve got trouble finding out the answers to them…

I am a failure, bottled up with so much thoughts and feelings; til the day I lay 6 feets under..

Thoughts are blowing thru my mind like a blizzard..