Fcuked up/mixed mood these few days..

… since the chalet. Dunno why and perhaps I know why. Was blog surfing and found someone. Went thru her(2) blog, added abit of mixed feelings and fcuk up essense to my mood now. Got thoughts which I cant express as I feel that it is complicated. Need someone who knows the situation to hear me out. Arg.

Been thinking of life. What’s my motive of living. Is there a goal I wish to achieve? Feel that I am living a second part of my life since last September.

Being alife is such a torture.